Love Life: Perfectly Imperfect with Priscilla Cabrera

Love Life: Perfectly Imperfect with Priscilla Cabrera 

With all that I have going on in my life mentally, let’s make room for my LOVE LIFE. People always ask me; how do you manage everything. School (luckily I am done for now), work, Maliah and social life. Well I like to call it BALANCE. It is always nice to go out and have some fun. Studies actually recommend this! :) 

 

What can I say about my love life! It’s a hot mess! I have always felt like I have had the worst luck with men in general. Like I always choose the wrong ones. Like the wrong ones and dislike like the good ones. 

 

As a single mom, it's hard dating. You cannot just up and leave, like I was previously use too. You have to make sure you have a babysitter and make sure your baby is squared away.  (Luckily my mom is a G and always comes through)! I truly believe she helps me because I deserve it. A night off is always good. Now, I am not that one mom that goes out every day and neglect my child! Let’s just make that very clear now. 

 

We all know that Ciara and Russell Wilson prayed and wrote down what they wanted in a partner and BAMB!!! They met, married and have two cute kids together.  

Let me tell you, I prayed and wrote down what I wanted in a man. From characteristics, personality and ambition etc. I won’t go into detail but I was specific! MAYBE NOT SPECIFIC ENOUGH! I met this man, let’s call him Tim.  Disclaimer he is nowhere close to looking like a Tim whatever that means! Tim had everything that I prayed for and more. Ambitious, made me feel secure, safe and quite frankly made me want to be a better person overall. I can definitely say that we had a real connection. A connection that to me felt beyond this world. Tim felt this too, I know he did. Four months passed by and I felt like I knew him but felt like he was hiding a huge part of him. 

 

Leave it to my great PI skills to come in clutch! I swear at times I hate that my PI skills are pretty damn good. Well, sure and behold I found out that he was married, had like 4 kids, was older than what he said he was. Age wise I was cool. To me age is nothing but a number. I was shocked! Now what I found was from maybe a year or two before I met him. I had not seen anything within the last recent months. 

 

Of course, like any sane person I ended things with Tim via text message. I blocked him and honestly not even sure if he replied. Well I was curious. So, I unblocked him two months later, not sure if I reached out or he did. I wanted to give him a chance and say what he needed to say. Nonetheless we met up and of course, Tim being Tim he said he was married but not with the wife. Being my naïve self, I believed him. Maybe because I truly felt this man could be the one? 

 

Two months passed by and I caught myself meeting up with this man. I felt lonely and wanted his company. Again, this entire time my naïve self-continued to believe him. Continued to believe lie after lie. Everybody kept telling me that he is with his wife but of course  I chose to believe what I wanted to believe.

 

Well…. My PI skills came in clutch once again! I found her active social media page. I thought to myself, damn this man is good! How the hell does he do it! Turns out they are happily married. A 14-year marriage, 3 kids together and moved into a new home! I’ll be damned! You guys are probably wondering, how I know all this. My PI skills I tell YOU! 

 

After I found this out, I met with him again. I knew he was married and I could not bring myself to let the words out! Now I know what you are probably thinking, I am a home wrecker. But if I’m being honest, I didn’t feel like I was. I seen a family member going through some issues with his wife and they are still legally married but not together. All I did was give him the benefit of the doubt. Continuing to think he is the one. Crazy what being into someone can really do to you. 

 

You are probably asking me, are you still currently seeing him. When I saw him the last time, I knew it was going to be my last. That I wasn’t going to continue seeing a married man. Albeit I did not want to admit it, I knew it was the right choice to do for me. His wife seems amazing and his family is beautiful. I am not sure why men mess up a good thing at home. 

 

Nine months of going back and forth with this man, I knew I had to finally move on. I honestly have no hard feelings for him. I still genuinely think he is a good man. He just needs to get it together! And if I'm being honest with you, I am not even sad.I truly wish him the best with his family and I hope he can truly find happiness in his relationship with his wife. Even though he might have felt like my soulmate, I know there is a man out there for me who will cherish everything that I am and bring to the table. 

 

 

Until next time. 

From Yours Truly, Perfectly Imperfect Priscilla